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My First Post
My first post. How about talking about why i decided to start a blog. I guess I've jus passed another stage of my life. Those who know what i'm talking about know that I haven't exactly been in the best of moods these few weeks.

To all my Frens, thanks for keeping me company these few weeks. I really can't imagine being by myself after all that has happened. I never used to make the effort to even keep in contact with my frens. Now i noe Frens are important. More important than your other half. Because your frens can't break up with you. Haha..

To Selina, thanks for the wonderful memories throughout these 2 years. Before i met u, i was contented with my life. After knowing you however, you allowed me to experience happiness, sadness and a whole bunch of other emotions which cannot be described by the limited words in the English language. I can't say i agree with your views at this point of time. But i accept them and respect your decision. Mainly because i have no choice. Haha.. Hopefully in time to come i'll understand you better and you can change your mind about me.

But every cloud has a silver lining. I guess after all this, i've grown up a little. I've finally realised what i actually cherish the most in my life, and that would be my Frens whom i have actually taken for granted. I know now that there's no such thing as love at first sight and it is actually built from the first day the both of you started on that wonderful journey together, and also that it doesn't disappear the day you let go of each other's hands.

I once told myself happiness is a choice. That no matter what happens, if you choose to be happy, nothing can get to you. Its hard to be optimistic sometimes, but if we all dwell in the past, we'll never move on. Its even harder to forget sometimes, in fact, the harder you try to, the more deeply etched memories become. Maybe we could all try that for our exams, try to forget the things you've studied to remember it. Someone try that for your next sem and tell me how it goes. Haha.. But i guess instead of forgetting the sadness in your life, accept it and look on the bright side of things. I'm pretty sure there're loads of happiness in your life too. Hope i can do what i say. Cause its not easy. But once again, thanks to all my Frens who've made it so much easier.

I'm a forgetful person. The moment i'm all better i forget how sad i was before. That might be a good thing. But i prefer to remember. Guess that's what this blog is for. To keep a log of everything in my life. When i look back 5 years later, i'll still remember the promises i made to myself and the people around me. I'll wanna remember all the significant events in my life, all the happiness and joy, all the jokes and laughter, all the sadness and tears and all the anger and pain. They're all part of being human so dun be afraid of experiencing them.
A line from Tuesdays with Morrie - Wash yourself with the emotion. It won't hurt you. It will only help. If you let the fear inside, if you pull it on like a familiar shirt, then you can say to yourself, " Alright, it's jus fear, i don't have to let it control me. I see it for what it is."

I think i write well too. Haha.. Probably cause i'm writing something i feel for. Not some stupid GP essay about why i agree to a certain extend that the Earth is round. Or something in that general area. Yep alright.. That's it for now. Plenty more to write. I'll save some for the future in case i run out of things to do.